My mind was not in a good place this morning. I woke up around 4:00 and then didn’t fall back to sleep till probably close to 5:00.
My mind took me down the road of a couple of business projects that aren’t going so well, or at least as fast I have wanted them to go. Then the voices jumped on the bandwagon and started in on some good self attacks.
You know the ones, I am not doing good enough, I should be doing more, I have been slacking off too much, this probably isn’t going to work out, blah blah blah!!!!!
I finally was able to put the voices to rest by doing some breathe work and then focusing my attention on my breathe moving in and out of my nose. Finally going back to sleep.
When I woke up later I knew that I didn’t have much time to get ready for my run before the girls got up. Mainly just getting my mind and body moving and the blood flowing.
When my wife came in and asked if I was going on a run. I said yes, and she said “you better get going”.
Of course my mind was still kind of out of sorts from the wake up and attack on my psyche earlier. Now when she made the comment about better get going I said “yes I know”, and inside I was saying, “of course I know I need to get going, but I would like to get myself awake first and get a drink of water, and and and.
The thoughts were defensive and angry.
Of course her intention was only to make sure I got my run started before the girls woke up and then it would be more challenging to get away and not get sucked into the morning routine. She was trying to support what I wanted.
I started the run and physically felt good. A little over halfway through my mind (you know the negative one that says you suck) was convincing to cut the run short, you don’t need to finish the run, you're tired, etc.
That was the same mind who earlier was berating me for not doing enough.
So I bought in and started to walk for a bit.
Then the more powerful me, the one that has done so much training and personal work spoke up and said, “Don’t listen to them, they don’t know what they are talking about, you are doing great….”.
The empowered voice started reminding me of the amazing things I had done and that I can do this.
So I took a deep breath and refocused on what I was doing and committed myself to the run. Which I finished. Yeah! 🏃
When I finished and look at my time and run history it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was. Another yeah! 👏
When I got back to the house my wife asked, “How was your run?”. My first response was, “it was ok” grumpy grumpy…..
There is that “suck” voice again. 😭
But I caught myself quickly and turned it around and said, “Actually it wasn’t that bad, not my worst run for sure. My mind was attacking me and now I am getting a handle on it and doing better.”.
She was like ok, great job!
And since then, I have had a great morning,
Got our homeschool done and that went really well and we had fun.
Had a client call that went wonderfully! All of this mindset stuff came up for them as well and we got to work on it and continue to bolster their tools.
Now I sit here writing about this and feeling positive and great about what I am doing.
So by recognizing my thoughts that were not helpful and being able to shift my mindset and belief at each situation then they fairly quickly got better. Another YEAH! 🎉
The thing is, today could have turned out to be a bad day with a bad attitude and with lots of blame to go around. But instead with some awareness and some practices the day continues to be amazing!
I Hope your voices are treating you right and your day is amazing.
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Blessings on your journey!